My Dearest Ava,
Its been 5 months today, but feels like an eternity. I miss you so much. I just wish I could hold you and tell you I love you face to face one last time. I make sure that memories of you are in every room in our house so we know that you are with us where ever we are. Ally still talks about you alot. I know that she wishes you two could play together.
I hope you like the Christmas tree and little snowman that I put at your resting spot. I know it isnt much, but I thought you would like it.
Until next time, I love you baby girl!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Everyday...
My Sweet Baby Girl,
I'm sorry it's been a while since I have last wrote you. This doesnt mean that I have forgotten about you so please dont let that cross your mind. I still think about you each and every day. Christmas is coming so fast and I wish so much that you were here. I know that you will be celebrating your first Christmas with Jesus this year. Some people here forget what Christmas is all about and I am so glad that you will learn first hand the true meaning of the holiday. Stay close to Mommy sweetheart. I need you more than ever.
I Love and Miss You!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
I'm sorry it's been a while since I have last wrote you. This doesnt mean that I have forgotten about you so please dont let that cross your mind. I still think about you each and every day. Christmas is coming so fast and I wish so much that you were here. I know that you will be celebrating your first Christmas with Jesus this year. Some people here forget what Christmas is all about and I am so glad that you will learn first hand the true meaning of the holiday. Stay close to Mommy sweetheart. I need you more than ever.
I Love and Miss You!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving
My Angel Ava,
Today is Thanksgiving Day and I really wish you were here. I felt you close to me today and it made the day much better. The whole family sent you balloons today. The sky lit up with pink balloons looked absolutely beautiful just like you. Make sure you catch 'em baby girl. They were sent with loads of love.
I made your stocking today to hang up with ours on the mantle. Just because you are not here doesn't mean that you are not a part of our family. One day we will all meet again in Heaven. I know that you are safe and that's all that matters.
Until next time, I love you and miss you more than you will ever know.
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Today is Thanksgiving Day and I really wish you were here. I felt you close to me today and it made the day much better. The whole family sent you balloons today. The sky lit up with pink balloons looked absolutely beautiful just like you. Make sure you catch 'em baby girl. They were sent with loads of love.
I made your stocking today to hang up with ours on the mantle. Just because you are not here doesn't mean that you are not a part of our family. One day we will all meet again in Heaven. I know that you are safe and that's all that matters.
Until next time, I love you and miss you more than you will ever know.
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Monday, November 24, 2008
Rainbow Baby
My Sweet Little Angel,
Your sissy and I put up the Christmas tree this weekend and all I could think about was you. I wondered what your expression would have been when we first turned the lights on. Wide eyed? Would you have cried? All I know is I miss you more and more everyday. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. Your Daddy and I picked out a stone to go in your flower garden. It fits your perfectly. Thanksgiving is this week and we are sending you balloons. Make sure you catch them, especially Ally's.
I also want you to know that your Daddy and I have decided to have another baby. Please understand that if God allows us to have another, this baby will not replace you. You will always have a piece of me with you and I know that you are near. Whenever you feel the time comes, pick you out a little brother or sister and try and make sure they get here safely. Until next time, I love you baby girl
A million times we've needed you
A million times we have cried,
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In Life we loved you dearly
in death we love you still,
For in our hearts you hold
A place no one could ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you.
But you did not go alone,
For a part of us went with you
the day God took you home.
XOXOXOXOXO,
Mommy
Your sissy and I put up the Christmas tree this weekend and all I could think about was you. I wondered what your expression would have been when we first turned the lights on. Wide eyed? Would you have cried? All I know is I miss you more and more everyday. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. Your Daddy and I picked out a stone to go in your flower garden. It fits your perfectly. Thanksgiving is this week and we are sending you balloons. Make sure you catch them, especially Ally's.
I also want you to know that your Daddy and I have decided to have another baby. Please understand that if God allows us to have another, this baby will not replace you. You will always have a piece of me with you and I know that you are near. Whenever you feel the time comes, pick you out a little brother or sister and try and make sure they get here safely. Until next time, I love you baby girl
A million times we've needed you
A million times we have cried,
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In Life we loved you dearly
in death we love you still,
For in our hearts you hold
A place no one could ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you.
But you did not go alone,
For a part of us went with you
the day God took you home.
XOXOXOXOXO,
Mommy
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I Need You
My Dearest Ava,
I felt you so close to me yesterday and I really needed it. Your Grandma Shelia had surgery yesterday and that was the first time I had set foot in the hospital since I lost you. I was surrounded by pregnant women rubbing their swollen bellys and all I wanted to do was just let go and cry my eyes out. I stayed strong and it was because I knew you were with me. When I went to your Grandma's room last nite, I walked past a dark, silent room and I noticed it had a flower with a tear drop on the door. I just wanted to run in and give that woman a hug. I knew what she was going through all too well and it will always be fresh in my mind. Ava, I want you to know that you have changed me. Your tiny little soul has formed me into a stronger woman than I was before. I don't take things for granted anymore. As I walk outside, I let the wind blow through my hair without caring what it makes it look like, I stop and soak in the scenery, all of the these things I never did before. I thank you for all of this my little angel. More than you will ever know.
I Love and Miss you Everyday!!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
I felt you so close to me yesterday and I really needed it. Your Grandma Shelia had surgery yesterday and that was the first time I had set foot in the hospital since I lost you. I was surrounded by pregnant women rubbing their swollen bellys and all I wanted to do was just let go and cry my eyes out. I stayed strong and it was because I knew you were with me. When I went to your Grandma's room last nite, I walked past a dark, silent room and I noticed it had a flower with a tear drop on the door. I just wanted to run in and give that woman a hug. I knew what she was going through all too well and it will always be fresh in my mind. Ava, I want you to know that you have changed me. Your tiny little soul has formed me into a stronger woman than I was before. I don't take things for granted anymore. As I walk outside, I let the wind blow through my hair without caring what it makes it look like, I stop and soak in the scenery, all of the these things I never did before. I thank you for all of this my little angel. More than you will ever know.
I Love and Miss you Everyday!!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Monday, November 17, 2008
Thinking Of You
My Precious Ava,
The past few days have been hard for me, but I have felt you near by. I had a hard time going to sleep last night because it felt like you were laying right next to me. I just didn't want to let you go. I go through my days wondering what you would be doing now if you were here with us. I just ache to hear your giggles and see your beautiful smile.
I planted the first flowers in your flower garden yesterday. They will bloom in spring and that is when we will finish the area. I have picked out the bird bath and Daddy found a bench that you will love. I cannot wait to see it finished.
I bought you a little doll Saturday that I may send up to you with some balloons. I know you will like it because Ally really did. :)
Until next time baby girl, I love you and miss you more and more every day!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
The past few days have been hard for me, but I have felt you near by. I had a hard time going to sleep last night because it felt like you were laying right next to me. I just didn't want to let you go. I go through my days wondering what you would be doing now if you were here with us. I just ache to hear your giggles and see your beautiful smile.
I planted the first flowers in your flower garden yesterday. They will bloom in spring and that is when we will finish the area. I have picked out the bird bath and Daddy found a bench that you will love. I cannot wait to see it finished.
I bought you a little doll Saturday that I may send up to you with some balloons. I know you will like it because Ally really did. :)
Until next time baby girl, I love you and miss you more and more every day!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Friday, November 14, 2008
I Really Needed This Today
I walk with you my mommy dear,
I'm always with you, always near.
Just look behind as steps you take,
And see my footprints that I make.
They're in your heart when you're asleep,
You feel me kicking when you weep?
I walk with you when you are sad,
But I am happiest when you're glad.
I'm never far away from you,
I'm here in everything you do.
I walk with you if you're in pain,
I steady and help you up again.
And when on earth God calls you high,
I'll light the way mommy, to His sky.
God says I'm a gift mom, purer than gold,
He sent me to love you until you grow old.
You're blessed with an angel from Him above,
You gave me life, and we give you love.
I walk with you for eternity,
I am your angel, mommy look at me!
I love you Baby Girl!!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
I'm always with you, always near.
Just look behind as steps you take,
And see my footprints that I make.
They're in your heart when you're asleep,
You feel me kicking when you weep?
I walk with you when you are sad,
But I am happiest when you're glad.
I'm never far away from you,
I'm here in everything you do.
I walk with you if you're in pain,
I steady and help you up again.
And when on earth God calls you high,
I'll light the way mommy, to His sky.
God says I'm a gift mom, purer than gold,
He sent me to love you until you grow old.
You're blessed with an angel from Him above,
You gave me life, and we give you love.
I walk with you for eternity,
I am your angel, mommy look at me!
I love you Baby Girl!!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Missing You
My Dearest Ava,
I just want you to know how much you are loved and missed. I think about you all of the time. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you and wish you were here for me to hold. As the holidays approach, it is going to be so hard without you here. Please be close to me. I need that more than ever. Saturday will be 4 months and it seems like such an eternity. I sometimes can still feel you kicking in my tummy and I look down only to see nothing. I know you are safe in Heaven and I look forward to the day that I will be able to hold you again.
I love you baby girl and miss you more than ever!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
I just want you to know how much you are loved and missed. I think about you all of the time. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you and wish you were here for me to hold. As the holidays approach, it is going to be so hard without you here. Please be close to me. I need that more than ever. Saturday will be 4 months and it seems like such an eternity. I sometimes can still feel you kicking in my tummy and I look down only to see nothing. I know you are safe in Heaven and I look forward to the day that I will be able to hold you again.
I love you baby girl and miss you more than ever!
XOXOXO,
Mommy
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